That
day I was very stressed. My head was throbbing. I didn't know what to
do. My exams were just a week away. I had topped not only in my
college but in the entire university in the first year of my course.
I enjoyed all the adulation, which I had never experienced till then. My
topping in the first year had opened the doors of many
extra-curricular and co-curricular activities as well.
The
cherry, chocolate sauce and every thing that was good on the cake, was
that I excelled in these extra-curricular and co-curricular
activities as well. Here too I created records. I won inter-university
prizes. Everywhere all – the students, teachers and even outsiders
talked only about me. What more an eighteen years old could have
asked for?
The
whole year passed in receiving all those prizes. Now my second year examination
was staring at me point blank with its big mouth gaping. I had done
everything in that year – yes everything apart from studies.
Unfortunately none of my extra or co-curricular activities were going
to help me when it came to examination. I wondered how good it would
have been if the exams were in the form of extra-curricular or for
that matter even co-curricular activities. After all exams were all
about cramming and bookish knowledge. While the extra and
co-curricular activities trained us for the real world outside –
whether professional or personal.
But
all this mental consolation was not going to help me out when I
hadn't studied at all. In my first year I had topped the university
with record breaking marks. Now the pressure was mounting up on me.
Leave getting that score, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to
even scrap through the examinations.
"Take a drop" Told a friend of mine with whom I had shared my plight.
"What
do you mean?" I asked me.
"Don't
appear for the examination this year. Study well and appear next
year." I was very happy with the solution which he had offered.
All my nerves were relaxed in a moment.
That day when I returned home I told my mother about my decision. She was calm. She did not speak a word until the day of the examination arrived. I was merrily singing a song as I was determined that I was not going to write the exams.
“Go and appear for your exams.” She told me.
“I
will appear next year.” I replied carelessly.
“No.
Go and appear right now.” She said with a firm voice.
“But
I have not studied.”
“Doesn’t
matter go and write whatever you know.”
“I
will f.... fail.” The word fail took too long to drop from my mouth.
“You
wont. I trust your abilities.”
Her trust added to the pressure which I was carrying for the examination. We discussed. She never raised her voice. But she didn’t budge from coaxing me to write the exams. Having no option left I trudged to the exam hall. I had not studied. Still I scribbled answers to the questions. I wrote all the papers. Finally the ordeal was over.
After
two months it was the time for declaration of the results. The monster of fear of failure
resurfaced. I was unable to sleep for the whole night. I was
contemplating as to what should I do in case I failed. I zeroed on a
few jobs which I would take up if I failed.
The
results were declared. To my great surprise, I had passed with
fifty-five percent marks. Now that was not the score you could expect
from an erst-while university topper. But for me the fact that I
hadn’t failed was enough. The next year, which was final year of my
college, I studied since the beginning and struck a balance between
my studies and extra and co-curricular activities. No wonders I again
topped in the university.
I
thank my mother for giving me #SachchiAdvice. I thank God for not
listening to that well-wisher adviser who had asked me to take a
drop. Had I listened to him, I would have wasted a valuable year of my
student life.
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